So, we are all home now. We've been home for almost 3 days. What's going on in our minds and in our hearts? Well, I can't speak for the whole team, but I can speak for myself. There is a tension in my mind and heart. It is back to routine, as usual. But, should it be? I am enjoying spending time with my husband and children. I am thankful for family. It feels like some of my family is still in Haiti. What difference can one week make? I think it makes a lot of difference. We wonder if we really could make a difference? I believe it made a difference to us all.
How do we go on with our lives of drinkable water, food aplenty, medical care, safe streets (relatively), hot showers and air conditioning? How do we resolve such blessings in our lives when we have left behind 120 children who live day in and day out without such blessings? We have family. For many of the orphans in Haiti, belonging to a family is not an option.
God called all 7 of us to Haiti for such a time as this. We poured into their lives. We gave them time, attention, and affection. For the time we were there, we showed them family. We are their family because of Christ Jesus. Hopefully, they were affirmed in the Truth that they are not forgotten. God knows their names. And now, so do we. "He has plans to prosper them and to give them a hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11) I believe our team was a part of that hope.
I am grateful for my time in Haiti. I am grateful for the 6 sisters in Christ who shared this experience with me. I am grateful to the 120 children who showed me love and allowed me to share in their lives. I am grateful for the blessing to feel love, compassion, mercy, grace, and goodness. I am grateful for the prayer warriors who daily lifted us up and interceded on our behalf. I am grateful to the Lord, our Creator and Savior who calls us all into relationship with Him so that we can glorify His name in all the earth. I am grateful for the Holy Spirit within me that breaks my heart for what breaks the heart of God. I pray for my heart to be opened up and broken each day. I don't have to be in Haiti to make much of Jesus.
In the meantime, we are called to be faithful, whether in Haiti, Tennessee, Michigan, Illinois, Oklahoma, Pennsylvania, or Texas. We are called to seize everyday for His glory and His pleasure. I pray I am found faithful... There is tension in my heart and soul. I know it is the Lord continuing the good work He has started within me. Haiti is a stepping stone in that journey. I am ready for the next step.
Following His lead, Melanie